The Point of No Return

*Random thought of the Day: "It is our choices that show what we truly are, for more than our abilities." ~J.K. Rowling(Harry Potter series author)
We all have talents and abilities. But we all have to try to make the best choices that we can, to get to who we truly are or are becoming. It's not as simple as it may appear. Especially since the phrase 'who we are' is kind of broad if you really think about it. But the main idea of this quote, is make the right choices that are best for YOU. Not anyone else, YOU! This is where we are allowed to be selfish(: Only you and the Lord know what's best for you. Even if it's not entirely the direction you think you want to go, you have to do whats good and what's right. Only then will your abilities fall into their proper place. The End.*

Well, as you can see, my title is the POINT OF NO RETURN. Well, I guess it's kind of ironic that I just so happened to have the amazing experience of seeing Phantom of the Opera, the broadway show LIVE last weekend! IT.... WAS.... AMAZING! Wowzers! I love that show and the cast was excellent! Ok, the guy who played Raul, kinda sucked I must say. He could sing no doubt, but his acting-not so much. Maybe I just finally have found the annoyance in his character all together, but he really was annoying at the show. The Phantom however, as well as Christine, had BEAUTIFUL voices! It was so good. It's probably still not my favorite show that i've seen, Wicked tops them all, but it was still pretty awesome! I went with my friend Jason, and mom and Duane also joined us. They even treated us to Olive Garden before the show(: Fun stuff! I also added to my collection of other posters from the other 2 shows I've seen and got a Phantom poster of course! It fits nicely on my wall(:

Thanksgiving was of course this past week. I joined my family, Aunt Kathi and her family, and Uncle Kris and Aunt Jessica even came for Thanksgiving day with their cute little kids! It was fun and rather relaxing! We had some fun with the game "Curses" of course(:....

It was fun hanging out with my cousin Sheree, and playing with my adorable little cousin Avery(:

We also took a little walk/hike at the bottom of the Catalina Mountains in Tuscon, near my grandma's house. It was nice to get out and be active.

The same day, we also went and saw one of the best movies I think ever made! "THE BLIND SIDE". SO SO good!!! Based on a true story and starring Sandra Bullock. Wow. She can play any part it any movie. I loved it-I reccomend it to everyone! The food of course was all amazing! I love the fact that after working out 3 times a week, I can come and eat all this food and eat sugar and pie and more food, and not feel guilty about it, because I know on Monday that I'll be going to the gym again and running it all off(: It's been a good weekend!

In other news, I've officially started applying for college. Haha. Sounds and feels like I'm a senior in high school all over again. However, when I was a senior, I applied for EAC and that was it. That's where I was going and that's where I've been.(and really need to leave soon(:) But my 4 schools, [possibly there may be a 5th in the works], are BYU-Idaho, Northern Arizona University, Utah State University, and Utah Valley University. My 5th one might be University of Utah or possibly even ASU.

Not sure. But, applications are nearly done. Just a few things left such as sending transcripts and then of course i'll be signing up for music school/scholarship auditions at the majority of the schools. It's really crazy. I'm kinda worried at whether I'll get in or not, or what's going to happen. But i finally realized that all I need to do right now is just apply and see what happens. If something else comes along, and changes my plans, or another option comes up, I'll deal with it when it comes! dot dot dot... Story of my life.

So, the real meaning behind my title. As it gets to the end of the semester, I've realized that it is the point of no return. So I realize that the song is about the passion of the Phantom of the Opera for Christine, but I've learned that words can have more than one meaning. In the song it says,
You have come here

in pursuit of your deepest urge

in pursuit of that wish.....

Past the point of No Return
No backward glances
Past all thought of "if" or "when"...
abandon thought, and let the dream descend...
Past the point of No Return
the final threshold-what warm
unspoken secrets will we learn?...
I have come here
hardly knowing the reason why...

Past the point of no return...
the bridge is crossed, so stand and watch it burn

We've passed the Point of No Return

Extremely beautiful words. And have a lot to do with my life I gotta say. To put it deeply, i'm finding that it is time to let my dreams descend, with no backward glances. I'm sure there are unspoken secrets that I will learn. I am learning the reasons why I came to EA. And I'll keep going until I leave here, because it is passed the point of NO return. The past is in the past and the future is full of so much for me. I may not know what it holds, but God does and he knows what direction to put me in or help me decide. I feel so inadequate most of the time, but when I pray, I know he has so much mercy still and knows that i'm at least trying.

Well that's my schpill for this blog(:

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving and always remember the things you have to be greatful for. Whether it's a lot of not. Take advantage of each day and live it to the fullest, being greatful for what you have in your life.

Have a great week!

Just Haven't Met You Yet...Motivation-ZERO!

*Random thought of the Day: My favorite song of the week! "Haven't Met You Yet" by Micheal Buble! This song is seriously my new happy song! I think I listen to it 5 times a day! It's all about love and how its going to be, whenever you meet that special someone. Micheal Buble just has a way with words. Ok, so I don't know if he actually wrote the song, but he's got an amazing voice and this song is so cute and happy! So, watch the music video! It's not my perfect idea of this song, but at the end of it-I really do feel like dancing everytime I hear htis song! Enjoy! The End.*


Well Well Well! November is speeding by faster than ever! I'm getting nervous with some things. I do have my recital this week. I'm not too terribly nervous, yet, but I'm sure it will go well. I'm more nervous about passing music theory right now. I think I can pass, but that's not really the point unfortunantly. The point is that I'm missing things that I'm learning. Like-they aren't engraved in my head real well and it doesn't help when I'm supposed to be connecting everything together in one way or another. It's nuts! Pray for me(: I need to make it through somehow!

This past week has been pretty good. The weekend even better of course(:

On Friday afternoon/evening, I got into an organizing/cleaning mood and did some organizing in my room, as well as cleaning the bathroom and doing dishes. I was home alone so I figured I might as well get something useful done. Though, I COULD have done a little homework, but you all know me-I find distractions whether intentional or not(: I"M WORKING ON IT!

After my cleaning/organizing spree, I went on a date with a guy in my ward. He is in my FHE group and also my home teacher, so we see each other a bit! It was tons of fun! We were with Heather and Joe, and another couple that are friends of ours. We had a fire outside of Joe and Jordans(my date) house and did tinfoil dinners which were awesome! We also had some cobbler. Then we went inside and played "Curses" hee hee! Such a fun game! If you've never played it-I recommend it! I had played it once before, but this time was way nuts! We had so much fun with the curses that were given to us haha!

After that, we decided to end the night, seeing as it was late, and some of us were getting up early the next morning for...

THE ANNUAL CHILI PICKING! Woot! Ok, so it was my first time going. I missed the last couple years of it due to whatever my reasons were(: It's a big service project and so a bunch of us institute kids went out about 45 minutes to some big chili fields and well-picked chilis! We were hot in the sun, and it was tiring, but we had fun hanging out together and singing songs and throwing the "bad" chilis at each other(: I left a little early, sadly missing lunch, but went home and got clean again, so as to be ready for Hannah and Heather's bridal shower! Double the fun. Good thing there were "doubles", otherwise it would have been "double" lame(:. It was slightly single lame though haha. Not a whole ton of people came, but I'm just glad I wasn't the one throwing it for once! The cake was great. It was "Kitchen Themed" bridal shower, hence the somewhat lameness(: But we had fun and our good friend Kendra Perkins came to visit for the weekend so she and I chatted during the shower and I was the photographer, naturally!

After the bridal shower, me, the twins, and Kendra had a girls night! Woot! We started by going to Denny's for a lovely meal, in which we laughed throughout most of! Afterwards, we went to the RedBox and rented "The Proposal"! Good movie. I had seen it in theatres this summer, but the twins hadn't watched it so we enjoyed a good laugh! After the movie, for old times sake when Kendra was our roommate 2 years ago, we did MADLIBS! Haha-if you don't know what those are-well, find out! Good times. Then of course the "fiances" HAD to come over because heaven forbid the girls spend one night without seeing their boys for a little bit(: We had a great night!

Church was awesome on yesterday! The institute missionaries-Brother and Sister Slade spoke and I really enjoyed it! They are a really neat couple and just love being around the young adults! And, being the ward music coordinator, I had 2 girls do a piano/violin duet as a special music number and it was beautiful! I have always wanted to play the violin! Maybe when I'm 85 I will learn.

Sunday evening, I had the opportunity to go to mission prep. No, I'm not going on a mission, but Heather's fiance Joe, asked for my assistance. He teaches mission prep and invited several people like myself to role play as potential investigators! So, I went into a room with 3 boys preparing for missions and they taught me the first discussion. I knew they were nervous so I didn't ask them TOO hard of questions about the church(; They did a good job and it was really neat for me to see kinda how missionary work works! And to kinda get the feel of an investigator as well. Way fun and I was happy to help out!

Oh its Monday once again. Bla bla bla. So far I've made it through the day! Minus the music theory part....Wednesday there will be no school which makes me jump for joy! I can sleep in, maybe play some raquetball, and probably practice since my recital IS on Thursday. Joy of joys! Ok, I really have to write a politics paper now that I've been putting off.

Have a good week everyone!

LOL-Lots of love!